Whats the name of this song?

I saw it playing, it was like alternative hitlist number 4 or somthing on MTV, It starts out with this guy looking at these illuminati pictures, Then he looks out his window, and theirs a bright light, then he pulls out this tape recorder or somthing and starts like singing, Sounds devilish, Then he drowns himself in the bathtub, and in the end hes like flying up in the air and he dropped the tape recorder, and theres like 2 shining lights, thanks heellp